I'm not even sure where to start this. Not sure that I even want to write it. Am I being dramatic and overly emotional? Is it so late that I'm delirious and will regret writing some of these things tomorrow? No. Will I make tons of grammatical errors? Yes. But I don't care. I'm going to write this and hopefully not look back on it. Not even proof read it. I'm going to write it, click publish, and be done. Feedback is welcomed, if you choose.
Where do I start? I've had a really rough year. I'm not one to put my business out into the world, because I truly believe that you will attract that which you think. I don't like thinking about these things, however, they need to be said and be done with. Out of my life. GOODBYE.
First let me say I want to clear my name, and anything I may have ever done to offend someone. It was probably intentional at the time, and I am sorry. I haven't always acted as a good person. I've always had a good heart, but haven't always shown it. Yes, there is a specific person I am thinking about while writing this. I've truly felt such a hatred towards her for the past 3-4 years. We did our fair share of ugly things to one another, and I'm sorry. That isn't who I ever wanted to be. I don't want anyone's first middle or last impression of me to be an ugly one. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I am sorry. I'm not sure if she knows of my blog, but if she does I hope she reads this and truly feels that my apology is sincere. I've been holding onto this "grudge" for such a long time, and it honestly haunts me. No not like a ghost around the corner, but I have daily thoughts about things as well as dreams that just have me feeling so terrible. Like I said I've always had a good heart, but I'm different from the person I WAS. I'm proud of who I am today. I'm an amazing wife, a great mother and just a good person in general. This is me.
Now let me apologize, due to the fact that it IS after 2am, I am going to be ALL over the place with my thoughts, but that's just because I feel that I have a lot to say, and I'm not sure what order to say it in.
My next "thought" is on parents having an argument in front of their children. No not like a physical fight, but an argument. I grew up in a home where I was 100% sure that my dad absolutely adored my mom. I know he wasn't a "buy flowers for a lady" type, but it made her feel special, so he did it. My brother, I know, is a great husband to his wife (who I love!) due to how he was raised. Our parents raised us to show respect, be kind, loving, etc. Now, the one thing I don't ever remember hearing or seeing, was my parents fight (argue). I remember my parents separating for a week when I was maybe 6? I remember that day perfectly. My brother and I came home from school on the bus, my dad met us at the door. I remember he had on a short sleeved button up and there was a tiny piece of tissue on his face with a spot of blood. He had been shaving and cut himself. I could feel something wasn't right. He said him and my mom wanted to talk with us. They let us know they were separating and he would be going to live with my grandmother for a bit. My dad was my best friend, so I remember being so sad. It kind of came out of no where though, because like I previously said, I never heard my parents argue. Now fast forward to now. Not specifically today, but just me as a married adult. I have a serious problem with comparing myself, or my husband, or our marriage to anyone/anything else. I want and deserve the marriage my parents had, and when I don't have that, I feel so discouraged. I feel that things are crumbling. It makes me feel like our marriage isn't strong, because we argue at times. When I sit down and really think things through, I know I am being a little crazy and I realize of course people argue. Even my parents, though never in front of me. As much as I don't want my kids to ever hear us argue, I would rather that than have them grow up a confused disaster like me. I want my kids to see that it's OK to argue and eventually come to a mutual agreement or conclusion. No marriage is perfect. Not one. I don't want them to search for perfection one day. I want them to search for that person who will love them unconditionally and do absolutely anything to make them happy. I sure as hell will be raising my kids in the best way that I can. I will raise them to respect, to be honest. As they get older I'll teach them the difference between right and wrong, but let them know that they have the free agency to choose. They will know that consequences come with wrong action, but more importantly that praise comes from good choices.
Nexxxxttttt....
I want to be a stronger person and not doubt myself so often. I want to stand up for myself more than I do. I know Ive said it before, but I NEED to stop comparing myself to others. And I mean that in all aspects whether it be my physical image, myself as a wife, myself as a mother, as a daughter, friend, member of the church, whatever. I'm a good person. A good person, with a good heart, and I sure do try my hardest on a daily basis. That's me talking from a "pretending to be confident" point of view. Let me just say, sometimes I don't get the support or appreciation I need. Marriage is fricken hard. I know it's hard for different people on different levels. No marriage is the same, but let me be the first to say I'm struggling! I'm struggling to feel like I am doing a good enough job sometimes. I am not saying saia doesn't appreciate me, because I know he does. I'm also not saying he doesn't support me, because I know he does. What im saying is that it's not always in the way that I personally am needing it. And as much as I try to get that across it sometimes doesn't work! That's when I struggle. I feel that I am constantly being compared, and it's so hard. It makes me feel like crap to be honest. I know I beat myself up way more than I should. I know a lot of the things I think are just my own thoughts which are beating me down, but I just wish there was a simple way to fix this issue. A stranger or friend telling me "you're a great mom" feels good, but it's not coming from the one I need it to come from. I want sincere love, honesty and appreciation. I want to be accepted as I am, but encouraged to be better. I want to feel WHOLE again. I have this deep dark hole in my heart sometimes and it feels miserable. A smile can truly hide so much. I know for certain that not one person out there could have predicted that I'm feeling all of this. I don't let things out often, and when I do it's almost too late. Too late to fix things or to feel better. I slide my feelings under the rug way too often, and that leaves me feeling beat down. I'm so hard on myself and I need to somehow change that.
It's almost 3am now, and I'm just a mess. Tears and boogers everywhere! I'm grateful for this blog though. I'm grateful for a place to vent and get things off my chest. I don't want to come across as someone who is ungrateful, because I'm not. I am very grateful for saia that provides for our family, and very grateful for my kids who drive me crazy but remind me what it's all about. It's about love and happiness! Having kids was the greatest decision. I'm able to contribute 3 happy loving positive kids to society, to hopefully make the world a little brighter. I truly hope my heart and head can start feeling a little better. I hope to be a better person tomorrow than I was today, and I hope to get all the wonderful things that life has to offer. I deserve them.
10.23.2013
8.30.2013
well well well!
Well HELLOOOOOO there. Your girl has UPGRADED! Gah-lee... FINALLY. So yes, im on my laptop, yes the one that lyric broke like a year ago. By broke, i mean cracked the screen. So it's finally fixed. I never really saw it as a necessity, or super important to get fixed. Especially because we have the iPad... but having it back is wonderful! We're in our new place, and finally have our internet and Dish set up as well. Thats what i mean by i've been UPGRADED. Halleluiah! I feel whole and human and connected to the world again. My phone service at the house SUCKS, so pinterest wasn't an option, facebook would work on occasion if i was lucky and blogging just wasn't an option at all. Im back and it feels so good :)
Well things around here are ok, nothing too new. I dont know exactly where i left off at, but were in a house of our own now, and its perfect for us. Im still in the decorating phase, and that'll probably last a whole year or so until it's where i want it! Patience is key i guess. Everything is coming along great, even though the only thing hanging on my walls right now is a picture of Jesus. What better place to start though, right? I need to get the kids pictures taken so I can get crafty and make some of those fake canvas things on wood to go behind our couch, thats something im so excited to do! Hopefully it comes out great, and not a project to add to the "nailed it" folder! ;)
The kids are doing great.. Lyric will be 3 in a little over 2 months and I still cant believe it! Luve will be 2 in January and baby Vita will be 1 in March. Lyric is currently obsessed with movies, watching learning video's on youtube, singing, dancing, being bossy, singing her ABC's, playing rough with her daddy and she LOVES being outside. She'd be a camper if she could, I swear. She just loves being outside, and if this fricken weather would cooperate (not be 100+ each day) then i'd love to be out them with them all day! But unfortunately it's just way too hot, so we go out in the morning before that sun gets too strong :) Luve is a little rascal/terror. Yes it's that serious. He is just constantly into EVERYTHING. I guess he's just the typical 1 1/2 yr old child, which Lyric never was. She was always cautious, which this little boy is definitely not! He is always falling or jumping off the couch, book shelf, his bed, pretty much anything he can be crazy with, he is. If doing something will give me a heart attack, he does it. Actually he specializes in it! Other than being crazy, he's been good lately about eating new things (he was SO picky before) and he loves "singing" along when he hears a song he loves... usually "cheer up charlie" from Willy Wonka. They're obsessed. He's still not really talking,.......... ok not talking at all. Lyric was the same, she didn't say anything till she was about 2 so im hoping he comes around sooner than later! He still has a few months i suppose :) We love this little guy. Baby Vita is just the cutest squishiest HAPPIEST baby around! I cant get enough of him. He is SO easy going. He's happy just chillin on the floor watching his older brother and sister. He thinks they are HILARIOUS. I can make the kid smile, but his deep belly laughs come from watching Lyric and Luve just play and be silly. They are both SO good with him, always (well usually) cautious and love giving him kisses. I love that they are all so close in age and will hopefully grow up watching over and protecting eachother.
Anyway - thats about all thats going on here. I'll start taking pictures more often so I can update the blog with pictures of my little heart beats. I sure do love them!
...till next time...
Well things around here are ok, nothing too new. I dont know exactly where i left off at, but were in a house of our own now, and its perfect for us. Im still in the decorating phase, and that'll probably last a whole year or so until it's where i want it! Patience is key i guess. Everything is coming along great, even though the only thing hanging on my walls right now is a picture of Jesus. What better place to start though, right? I need to get the kids pictures taken so I can get crafty and make some of those fake canvas things on wood to go behind our couch, thats something im so excited to do! Hopefully it comes out great, and not a project to add to the "nailed it" folder! ;)
The kids are doing great.. Lyric will be 3 in a little over 2 months and I still cant believe it! Luve will be 2 in January and baby Vita will be 1 in March. Lyric is currently obsessed with movies, watching learning video's on youtube, singing, dancing, being bossy, singing her ABC's, playing rough with her daddy and she LOVES being outside. She'd be a camper if she could, I swear. She just loves being outside, and if this fricken weather would cooperate (not be 100+ each day) then i'd love to be out them with them all day! But unfortunately it's just way too hot, so we go out in the morning before that sun gets too strong :) Luve is a little rascal/terror. Yes it's that serious. He is just constantly into EVERYTHING. I guess he's just the typical 1 1/2 yr old child, which Lyric never was. She was always cautious, which this little boy is definitely not! He is always falling or jumping off the couch, book shelf, his bed, pretty much anything he can be crazy with, he is. If doing something will give me a heart attack, he does it. Actually he specializes in it! Other than being crazy, he's been good lately about eating new things (he was SO picky before) and he loves "singing" along when he hears a song he loves... usually "cheer up charlie" from Willy Wonka. They're obsessed. He's still not really talking,.......... ok not talking at all. Lyric was the same, she didn't say anything till she was about 2 so im hoping he comes around sooner than later! He still has a few months i suppose :) We love this little guy. Baby Vita is just the cutest squishiest HAPPIEST baby around! I cant get enough of him. He is SO easy going. He's happy just chillin on the floor watching his older brother and sister. He thinks they are HILARIOUS. I can make the kid smile, but his deep belly laughs come from watching Lyric and Luve just play and be silly. They are both SO good with him, always (well usually) cautious and love giving him kisses. I love that they are all so close in age and will hopefully grow up watching over and protecting eachother.
Anyway - thats about all thats going on here. I'll start taking pictures more often so I can update the blog with pictures of my little heart beats. I sure do love them!
...till next time...
6.14.2013
Blogging FAIL.
I can't believe it's been two months since I blogged! Where the hell have I been and what have I been doing? Oh you're wondering the same? Lets recap then.
So honestly I don't know what the past two months have been like... Because I can't even remember two days ago. Yes it's that serious. I CAN tell you, though, what last week was like! We were in Utah visiting Saia's side of our family. It was a blast! We were there for 7 days and it truly felt like only two. We were busy busy the whole time which was perfect for us. We got in Wednesday, Thursday was our oldest nephew Noah's graduation followed by a dance in his honor that night. The music was SOOOOO loud it was crazy. My poor children. Saia walked around with his thumbs covering Vita's ears so he wouldn't be deaf! Other than that, the food was good and company was even better. We had fun! I have no idea what happened Friday, but Saturday we had day 1 of our family reunion and it was s fun as always. We played games, had relay races, had our husbands lick whipped cream off our faces, went swimming, etc. unfortunately I got sunburned! Oh and I can't forget that we ate a ton. Or at least I did. Who can turn down delicious Tongan food & BBQ? Exactly. After all of that, a few of us couples left the kids with their grandma and grandpa (and aunts lome!) and went bowling! It was so fun until they kicked us out for no reason at all. What a bunch of jerks. Saia and I decided to go have some alone time and relax at a hotel for the night. It was a perfect night spent together. With three kids and his busy schedule, we RARELY get uninterrupted time alone, so it was such a great to be able to have that. We've decided to try and do that once a month. :)
Anyway, Sunday we went to church with the whole family. My mother and father in law gave talks as well as my sister in law Lome who is awaiting her mission call! Everything was in Tongan, so I only understood bits and pieces, but saia later told me about the talks and I loved them all. Especially he one my mother in law gave on marriage. We headed to the temple for family pictures, then to Soana's house to eat and just hang out. My poor luve was soooo whiney. He got sick somehow and is teething as well, so he just wasn't a very happy camper. Monday we hung out with family, went to eat with a bunch of them then I headed home with Soana while saia and Noah went to hang out with Mapa Si'i. We left early Tuesday morning and are so glad to be home and back in a routine, but miss everyone so much. I always look forward to our trips out there. I love the kids being able to play with their cousins and for saia and I to make more memories.
So that was our trip! Now I have a screaming baby on the floor who hates tummy time so I've got to run!
Until next time....
So honestly I don't know what the past two months have been like... Because I can't even remember two days ago. Yes it's that serious. I CAN tell you, though, what last week was like! We were in Utah visiting Saia's side of our family. It was a blast! We were there for 7 days and it truly felt like only two. We were busy busy the whole time which was perfect for us. We got in Wednesday, Thursday was our oldest nephew Noah's graduation followed by a dance in his honor that night. The music was SOOOOO loud it was crazy. My poor children. Saia walked around with his thumbs covering Vita's ears so he wouldn't be deaf! Other than that, the food was good and company was even better. We had fun! I have no idea what happened Friday, but Saturday we had day 1 of our family reunion and it was s fun as always. We played games, had relay races, had our husbands lick whipped cream off our faces, went swimming, etc. unfortunately I got sunburned! Oh and I can't forget that we ate a ton. Or at least I did. Who can turn down delicious Tongan food & BBQ? Exactly. After all of that, a few of us couples left the kids with their grandma and grandpa (and aunts lome!) and went bowling! It was so fun until they kicked us out for no reason at all. What a bunch of jerks. Saia and I decided to go have some alone time and relax at a hotel for the night. It was a perfect night spent together. With three kids and his busy schedule, we RARELY get uninterrupted time alone, so it was such a great to be able to have that. We've decided to try and do that once a month. :)
Anyway, Sunday we went to church with the whole family. My mother and father in law gave talks as well as my sister in law Lome who is awaiting her mission call! Everything was in Tongan, so I only understood bits and pieces, but saia later told me about the talks and I loved them all. Especially he one my mother in law gave on marriage. We headed to the temple for family pictures, then to Soana's house to eat and just hang out. My poor luve was soooo whiney. He got sick somehow and is teething as well, so he just wasn't a very happy camper. Monday we hung out with family, went to eat with a bunch of them then I headed home with Soana while saia and Noah went to hang out with Mapa Si'i. We left early Tuesday morning and are so glad to be home and back in a routine, but miss everyone so much. I always look forward to our trips out there. I love the kids being able to play with their cousins and for saia and I to make more memories.
So that was our trip! Now I have a screaming baby on the floor who hates tummy time so I've got to run!
Until next time....
4.15.2013
Yes please
So here I am again, on my "lunch break" we'll call it, while the kids are napping. I should probably be cleaning, but it's ok. Laundry and dishes are being washed right now so a small break should be allowed ;)
Anyway! A lot is going on around here. Some good, some bad and some ugly! We won't get into all of that just yet, BUT I want to say I'm just learning so much about life. So much about family as a structure, so much about people, and just so much about me. You know, being a mother truly has made me a better person. I can say that I've always had a good heart, but I let things get the best of me, and let an ugly side of me come out. Hey, I'm not perfect. We have all had our good and bad days, right? Yes. Well Moving here to texas and taking myself out of certain environments has, in my opinion, made me into who I really am. It's brought that "good person" back out of me. Not that it was gone, but it was definitely a bit hidden. I had let myself slip out of ME and into a completely different person. I don't know how else to explain that.
So anyway, I'm just looking at life a lot differently lately. I've learned a TON from my mom since moving here to texas. She has always been a good example, and is just a good person. Period. She always taught me to look for and try to only see the good in people, and to also choose wisely where to put your energy. By that I mean pick and choose your battles. Don't get so worked up over things that don't deserve it, or that you can't change. For example, if someone is being ugly to you, SURE you can get on their level and fight back, or you can just let it go. I've learned to let it go. If something happens in life that you have NO control over, JUST LET IT GO. Getting worked up isn't going to change that situation, so why waste your energy? Don't.
I'm trying to look at things differently, as well. Abraham Lincoln has some pretty great quotes floating around out there. One of my recent fav's is "you can complain because rose bushes have thorns, or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses." SO PERFECT. Change your perspective. Life opens up so much when you try and find joy in things. The more positive you are, the more you'll be able to welcome positivity into your life :) amen and the end.
On another note, I'm trying to be and eat healthier. I've been having a green smoothie for breakfast in the mornings or a peanut butter banana smoothie which is DELICIOUS and healthy. A few ice cubes, 2 bananas, half(ish) cup of almond milk, tbsp of peanut butter, and a half cup of cooked oatmeal. Try it. Soooo good. I told saia it really tastes like ice cream! He didn't think so, but that's just because the kid eats REAL ice cream daily. Ohh to have the fastest metabolism! What a blessing. Haha. Anyway! So I'm also tryyyyiinngg to fit in a little work out here and there. Ill be honest, it doesn't happen every day that's for sure! It's hard with three kids, but not impossible, so I'm doing the best I can and that's what matters. But just a little note to my future self if you don't mind :
Andie, if you plan to get pregnant ever again, PLEASE remember a few things.
1. Though you're probably craving soda, don't drink it. It'll make you unnecessarily fat and it'll suck to work off after your pregnancy.
2. Though those cookies and little Debbie's cakes DO taste so good... Don't eat them. They will make you fat and it'll suck to work off after your pregnancy.
3. Get your fat pregnant ass up and take a walk. Every. Single. Day. IT'LL MAKE YOU LOOK BETTER AND FEEL BETTER, ESPECIALLY AFTER YOUR PREGNANCY.
Please trust this advice, because its coming from your old large self that is currently trying so hard to get rid of the soda that you drank as well as the cookies and little Debbie's cakes you chose to eat.
SINCERELY,
Me. Well, you. Or I guess, US.
Anyway! A lot is going on around here. Some good, some bad and some ugly! We won't get into all of that just yet, BUT I want to say I'm just learning so much about life. So much about family as a structure, so much about people, and just so much about me. You know, being a mother truly has made me a better person. I can say that I've always had a good heart, but I let things get the best of me, and let an ugly side of me come out. Hey, I'm not perfect. We have all had our good and bad days, right? Yes. Well Moving here to texas and taking myself out of certain environments has, in my opinion, made me into who I really am. It's brought that "good person" back out of me. Not that it was gone, but it was definitely a bit hidden. I had let myself slip out of ME and into a completely different person. I don't know how else to explain that.
So anyway, I'm just looking at life a lot differently lately. I've learned a TON from my mom since moving here to texas. She has always been a good example, and is just a good person. Period. She always taught me to look for and try to only see the good in people, and to also choose wisely where to put your energy. By that I mean pick and choose your battles. Don't get so worked up over things that don't deserve it, or that you can't change. For example, if someone is being ugly to you, SURE you can get on their level and fight back, or you can just let it go. I've learned to let it go. If something happens in life that you have NO control over, JUST LET IT GO. Getting worked up isn't going to change that situation, so why waste your energy? Don't.
I'm trying to look at things differently, as well. Abraham Lincoln has some pretty great quotes floating around out there. One of my recent fav's is "you can complain because rose bushes have thorns, or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses." SO PERFECT. Change your perspective. Life opens up so much when you try and find joy in things. The more positive you are, the more you'll be able to welcome positivity into your life :) amen and the end.
On another note, I'm trying to be and eat healthier. I've been having a green smoothie for breakfast in the mornings or a peanut butter banana smoothie which is DELICIOUS and healthy. A few ice cubes, 2 bananas, half(ish) cup of almond milk, tbsp of peanut butter, and a half cup of cooked oatmeal. Try it. Soooo good. I told saia it really tastes like ice cream! He didn't think so, but that's just because the kid eats REAL ice cream daily. Ohh to have the fastest metabolism! What a blessing. Haha. Anyway! So I'm also tryyyyiinngg to fit in a little work out here and there. Ill be honest, it doesn't happen every day that's for sure! It's hard with three kids, but not impossible, so I'm doing the best I can and that's what matters. But just a little note to my future self if you don't mind :
Andie, if you plan to get pregnant ever again, PLEASE remember a few things.
1. Though you're probably craving soda, don't drink it. It'll make you unnecessarily fat and it'll suck to work off after your pregnancy.
2. Though those cookies and little Debbie's cakes DO taste so good... Don't eat them. They will make you fat and it'll suck to work off after your pregnancy.
3. Get your fat pregnant ass up and take a walk. Every. Single. Day. IT'LL MAKE YOU LOOK BETTER AND FEEL BETTER, ESPECIALLY AFTER YOUR PREGNANCY.
Please trust this advice, because its coming from your old large self that is currently trying so hard to get rid of the soda that you drank as well as the cookies and little Debbie's cakes you chose to eat.
SINCERELY,
Me. Well, you. Or I guess, US.
4.12.2013
Advice
I'm sitting here at the kitchen table, surrounded by two messy children in their booster seats with food half on the tray and half on eir clothes and the floor. The table has two cups with straws, cheezits, a left over syrup bottle from breakfast and a spoon. If my husband came home right now, he'd wonder what the heck I've been doing all day and why this room is such a disaster! Well, honey, I've done 4 loads of laundry; all washed folded/hung and put away. I've cleaned the living room and partially cleaned the bathroom! Sure the kids are a mess but they've had baths, naps and the two meals they should have had by now. Not to mention, the baby was bathed, recently fed and is now sleeping peacefully in his swing. I feel accomplished! Of course my job isn't yet done, but the sun is still shining so I've still got time ;) but for now, this is the only "me" time ill get today, so I'm gonna take it :)
Blogging is kind of relaxing. It's nice to take 10 or so minutes a day to just kind of relax and evaluate your day. Or tell a story. Either works! After all, it is MY time, so I'm going to use it however I wish!
So anyway, a while back a few of my friends who were going to be first time moms asked me for advice on being a mother, what worked for me and what didn't, etc. I was thinking about that today a lot while I was cleaning. First off let me say this, our house isn't always clean, he laundry isn't ALWAYS done, and our meals aren't always the healthiest... HOWEVER.. I do try my hardest. This is my job. I chose this. I chose to be a mother and a wife, it's what I've always wanted, and just as another person in their "dream job", I strive to do the best I can. Sure I don't always succeed, but every little ounce of effort counts. Am I right or am I right? I thought so.
So back to the advice. Rule #1 NEVER fall behind on your family's laundry. Ever. Ok just kidding, because its gonna happen to us all, but at least try not to, because it truly sucks! Remember up there how I said I've done 4 loads? Yeah I'm still not done. I have two more to do. Granted that does include blankets and sheets and such, but still. Rule #2 if you DO get behind on the laundry, and say you begin it but don't fold it right away so it ends up extra wrinkly on your bedroom floor for a day and a half, DON'T worry. Folding it and putting it away isn't really THAT bad. Laundry is kind of like working out. Starting it sucks, but once you're doing it and then finally done, you realize it truly wasn't all that bad, or hard, and didn't take that long. Rule #4 if you don't have more than one child, don't complain about having no time to do anything!!!! Just kidding. This is all just becoming awkwardly funny now, but on a more serious note, with each child I have, I realize how much I can really do in a short amount of time. 2 hours for a nap used to mean me watching the Ellen show, maybe a little prep for dinner and making our bed, ON MY GOOD DAYS. Crazy right? Shooooooooot, NOW a 2 hour nap means cleaning our bedroom, the living room, bathroom, doing laundry, prepping for dinner AND watching Ellen! It's kind of that feeling after you get off the phone with someone who drops that dreaded line "I'm heading that way and just wanted to drop by" ..... So you say "suuuuuure!" In your high pitched fake-as-hell voice, hang up the phone and become a crazy person cleaning everything in sight, knowing you have MAYBE 10 minutes to get the job done, and surprisingly, you do! That's how nap time goes for me. I know if I finish my job early, I can relax. Though most days the second I sit down, I hear someone making noise/waking up.. But that's ok too, because atleast that part of my job is d.o.n.e. mission accomplished.
Sooooo back to the advice? Yeah I really don't have any serious advice other than do what's best for you and what WORKS for you! Some people get up before their kids to get things done, and sure I could do that since my kids sleep till 9:30, but who wants to wake up earlier than they HAVE to? I enjoy my 9ish hours of sleep each night. I am up every 3-4 hours to feed the baby but no complaints there. In my opinion I have it good, and that's something I remind myself of often. Especially when I'm feeling frustrated or discouraged. My days don't always go as planned, and most days I look like a mess until 10 minutes before my husband comes home (or I just look like a mess. All.day.long) BUT I have three happy healthy children who have all the love and support in the world! I have a hard working husband who I know loves me and would do anything for our family, and THAT to me is what life is all about. Not counting the good times, but making each good time count ;)
Blogging is kind of relaxing. It's nice to take 10 or so minutes a day to just kind of relax and evaluate your day. Or tell a story. Either works! After all, it is MY time, so I'm going to use it however I wish!
So anyway, a while back a few of my friends who were going to be first time moms asked me for advice on being a mother, what worked for me and what didn't, etc. I was thinking about that today a lot while I was cleaning. First off let me say this, our house isn't always clean, he laundry isn't ALWAYS done, and our meals aren't always the healthiest... HOWEVER.. I do try my hardest. This is my job. I chose this. I chose to be a mother and a wife, it's what I've always wanted, and just as another person in their "dream job", I strive to do the best I can. Sure I don't always succeed, but every little ounce of effort counts. Am I right or am I right? I thought so.
So back to the advice. Rule #1 NEVER fall behind on your family's laundry. Ever. Ok just kidding, because its gonna happen to us all, but at least try not to, because it truly sucks! Remember up there how I said I've done 4 loads? Yeah I'm still not done. I have two more to do. Granted that does include blankets and sheets and such, but still. Rule #2 if you DO get behind on the laundry, and say you begin it but don't fold it right away so it ends up extra wrinkly on your bedroom floor for a day and a half, DON'T worry. Folding it and putting it away isn't really THAT bad. Laundry is kind of like working out. Starting it sucks, but once you're doing it and then finally done, you realize it truly wasn't all that bad, or hard, and didn't take that long. Rule #4 if you don't have more than one child, don't complain about having no time to do anything!!!! Just kidding. This is all just becoming awkwardly funny now, but on a more serious note, with each child I have, I realize how much I can really do in a short amount of time. 2 hours for a nap used to mean me watching the Ellen show, maybe a little prep for dinner and making our bed, ON MY GOOD DAYS. Crazy right? Shooooooooot, NOW a 2 hour nap means cleaning our bedroom, the living room, bathroom, doing laundry, prepping for dinner AND watching Ellen! It's kind of that feeling after you get off the phone with someone who drops that dreaded line "I'm heading that way and just wanted to drop by" ..... So you say "suuuuuure!" In your high pitched fake-as-hell voice, hang up the phone and become a crazy person cleaning everything in sight, knowing you have MAYBE 10 minutes to get the job done, and surprisingly, you do! That's how nap time goes for me. I know if I finish my job early, I can relax. Though most days the second I sit down, I hear someone making noise/waking up.. But that's ok too, because atleast that part of my job is d.o.n.e. mission accomplished.
Sooooo back to the advice? Yeah I really don't have any serious advice other than do what's best for you and what WORKS for you! Some people get up before their kids to get things done, and sure I could do that since my kids sleep till 9:30, but who wants to wake up earlier than they HAVE to? I enjoy my 9ish hours of sleep each night. I am up every 3-4 hours to feed the baby but no complaints there. In my opinion I have it good, and that's something I remind myself of often. Especially when I'm feeling frustrated or discouraged. My days don't always go as planned, and most days I look like a mess until 10 minutes before my husband comes home (or I just look like a mess. All.day.long) BUT I have three happy healthy children who have all the love and support in the world! I have a hard working husband who I know loves me and would do anything for our family, and THAT to me is what life is all about. Not counting the good times, but making each good time count ;)
4.05.2013
How did I get here?
Have you ever had that thought? How did I get to where I am today? It's not really a literal question, as if I feel someone dropped me into this life that I didn't have before, but more of a whoa, look at my life type thing. As saia and I sat at the dinner table last night, I asked him if he could believe that we are where we are today. We were sitting with lyric and Luve and baby vita was in his swing. He said "yeah, and I love it!" Perrrrrrfect answer, my darling. Haha but truly it's just crazy where we are today. We have surely come such a long way and have grown so very much. Love and dedication are to thank, as well as The Lord. We have made our fair share of mistakes, but The Lord knows our hearts and have helped us get to where we are today. If someone had asked me the year lyric was born where I saw my life in 3 years, I would have truly never expected it would be here. I would have answered with every detail of my life now had they asked where I WISH to be or WANT to be in three years. That goes to show you can have whatever you want. I'm truly so blessed, and so happy in my life. We have these three perfect little blessings, and a happy marriage! We're not perfect but we are perfect together and aaaaaanyone who has a problem with that can kiss my big fat ass. Haha but really. I'm happy, Saia is happy and our kids are the happiest out there! Life is great.
Ok part of that last statement was false. My poor Luve is NOT happy. He's struggling! Poor guys lips have been swollen for three days now and he has a rash al over his legs! We were at the drs yesterday for his 1yr check up and vita's newborn check up. The dr said the rash is just irritated skin. The ONLY thing I can think of that has changed is at I've been putting the color fizzy bath things in their bath water. They got som from the Easter bunny and maybe his skin just doesn't like it? It might not even be that, but that's the only thing I could come up with. In other news, he's still having a hard time adjusting to the new baby. He's still not a fan of him, and I truly can't wait for the day that they will be In the same room together and I won't have to worry about Luve pinching poking or hitting him! Oh what a dream ;)
So other than my poor boog having a hard time, life is grand. Vita is a little over two weeks old and is conquering the world already! Talking, running around and eating pizza. Ok I kid. However he is still a fantastic sleeper and eater! What more could we ask for? Oh, his one fault...... He kid has peed on me more times than lyric and Luve EVER did, combined. He's peed on lyric once too, so now each time I go to change his diaper, she runs and says "careful of the water mommy!" Lol it's hilarious. That dang water, gets us every time! ;)
Ok, so there is One thing I haven't mentioned that I wanted to hold off on until I got final results. But now they are here! Our baby Vita failed his first in hospital hearing test the day he was born. He passed his right ear but failed his left. I was assured it was probably just liquid in the ear, or due to him moving around so much. I was told to come back within 5-10 days to have him retested. Though I've heard lots of stories of this kind of thing happening, I was still a little worried. So after a week and a half I brought him back in for the retest. I was told if he fails, we will be referred to an audiologist to see what was going on. I was sure he'd pass! As the test went on for about 20 minutes, I watched the percentages go up and down. As it neared the end, I knew he wasn't going to pass. I immediately felt the tears coming to my eyes but tried SO hard to hold them back until I left the hospital. The nurse that helped me gave me the card with the # to call if someone hadn't contacted me by Friday, so I could set up an appointment. As I left the room out to my car, the tears just started to fall. I looked at my perfect boy and asked myself if this was real, and if it was, how will I prepare myself to deal with this, forever. I got home and told saia, and he assured me everything would be ok and for me to pray. He's just great. So comforting, and I love him for it. Anyway, the next two days until his drs appt I made all kinds of noises to see if he would react to them. Some he did, some he didn't. I was sure he could at least hear a little, which was comforting. Anyway, yesterday at his drs appointment I let our pediatrician know about his hearing results and asked if he could check if there was maybe fluid in his ears. He said they actually had the testing machine there and I didn't need to go to the audiologist. They tested him and he can hear perfectly from both ears. I felt such a strong release of built up worry and confusion. Thaaaaank The Lord. Truly. We are blessed. Three happy healthy children who are perfect in our eyes.
Ok part of that last statement was false. My poor Luve is NOT happy. He's struggling! Poor guys lips have been swollen for three days now and he has a rash al over his legs! We were at the drs yesterday for his 1yr check up and vita's newborn check up. The dr said the rash is just irritated skin. The ONLY thing I can think of that has changed is at I've been putting the color fizzy bath things in their bath water. They got som from the Easter bunny and maybe his skin just doesn't like it? It might not even be that, but that's the only thing I could come up with. In other news, he's still having a hard time adjusting to the new baby. He's still not a fan of him, and I truly can't wait for the day that they will be In the same room together and I won't have to worry about Luve pinching poking or hitting him! Oh what a dream ;)
So other than my poor boog having a hard time, life is grand. Vita is a little over two weeks old and is conquering the world already! Talking, running around and eating pizza. Ok I kid. However he is still a fantastic sleeper and eater! What more could we ask for? Oh, his one fault...... He kid has peed on me more times than lyric and Luve EVER did, combined. He's peed on lyric once too, so now each time I go to change his diaper, she runs and says "careful of the water mommy!" Lol it's hilarious. That dang water, gets us every time! ;)
Ok, so there is One thing I haven't mentioned that I wanted to hold off on until I got final results. But now they are here! Our baby Vita failed his first in hospital hearing test the day he was born. He passed his right ear but failed his left. I was assured it was probably just liquid in the ear, or due to him moving around so much. I was told to come back within 5-10 days to have him retested. Though I've heard lots of stories of this kind of thing happening, I was still a little worried. So after a week and a half I brought him back in for the retest. I was told if he fails, we will be referred to an audiologist to see what was going on. I was sure he'd pass! As the test went on for about 20 minutes, I watched the percentages go up and down. As it neared the end, I knew he wasn't going to pass. I immediately felt the tears coming to my eyes but tried SO hard to hold them back until I left the hospital. The nurse that helped me gave me the card with the # to call if someone hadn't contacted me by Friday, so I could set up an appointment. As I left the room out to my car, the tears just started to fall. I looked at my perfect boy and asked myself if this was real, and if it was, how will I prepare myself to deal with this, forever. I got home and told saia, and he assured me everything would be ok and for me to pray. He's just great. So comforting, and I love him for it. Anyway, the next two days until his drs appt I made all kinds of noises to see if he would react to them. Some he did, some he didn't. I was sure he could at least hear a little, which was comforting. Anyway, yesterday at his drs appointment I let our pediatrician know about his hearing results and asked if he could check if there was maybe fluid in his ears. He said they actually had the testing machine there and I didn't need to go to the audiologist. They tested him and he can hear perfectly from both ears. I felt such a strong release of built up worry and confusion. Thaaaaank The Lord. Truly. We are blessed. Three happy healthy children who are perfect in our eyes.
3.26.2013
Life with three
My name is Andrea Vainuku, and I am a mother of three.
What?? I am still adjusting to the sound of it. Still getting used to someone asking "is this your first?" And replying with "no, he is my third" :) HOWEVER, I must say, life is GOOD! Adding another child to your family is always a little nerve wracking, and has you wondering how life will change, but it's actually been rather smooth for me! Baby Vita is one week old today, and though I clearly remember life before he was born, I cannot imagine life now without him. He's still as perfect as he was one week ago today when they placed him in my arms. He nurses like a champ and is so easy going. He sleeps GREAT, and unlike my other two, he loves being swaddled. As much as I wished during my pregnancy that he was a girl, I am now so grateful he's not. He's just so cute and perfect, and no one could tell me otherwise.
As I said, adjusting has been way easier than I thought it would be. Vita and I got home from the hospital Wednesday, and Saia left town early Friday morning. For FOUR days. Though I was fine with him going, I was so scared at the same time. I had a million scenarios going through my head of getting nothing done, him coming home to the house a DISASTER, etc. I cried the whole way home from the airport. How was I going to take care of three kids? And Alone? Well let's just say it was NOTHING like I expected. Though the kids and I missed him terribly, things actually went fairly smoothly! Not only that, but I had time to clean! I deep cleaned the bathroom and our room as well. Lundry done! He came home to a clean kitchen, too. I am so impressed with myself, haha. All of that done with a two year old, one year old and newborn. Yes, I am superwoman, or that's at least how I felt.
Saia, by the way, was in Chicago for a rugby game. That kid is always going fun places, I swear! I'm glad, though, because he is truly such a hard worker, so when he has trips that he's able to take, I love for him to go and enjoy himself. He deserves it. He returned home late last night and though the kids haven't seen him yet, I know they will be SO excited when he's home from working today. Lyric always asks for daddy morning noon and night. She's such a daddy's girl.. And I love it!
Anyway, it's time I wrap this up. I have a peacefully sleeping baby in his swing and two crazy ratchet children who are in their beds SUPPOSED to be napping, but all they're doing is laughing and talking back and forth. Who could complain? I've had about 30 minutes so far to myself. Tv is off and I'm just enjoying everything around me. LIFE. IS. GOOD.
What?? I am still adjusting to the sound of it. Still getting used to someone asking "is this your first?" And replying with "no, he is my third" :) HOWEVER, I must say, life is GOOD! Adding another child to your family is always a little nerve wracking, and has you wondering how life will change, but it's actually been rather smooth for me! Baby Vita is one week old today, and though I clearly remember life before he was born, I cannot imagine life now without him. He's still as perfect as he was one week ago today when they placed him in my arms. He nurses like a champ and is so easy going. He sleeps GREAT, and unlike my other two, he loves being swaddled. As much as I wished during my pregnancy that he was a girl, I am now so grateful he's not. He's just so cute and perfect, and no one could tell me otherwise.
As I said, adjusting has been way easier than I thought it would be. Vita and I got home from the hospital Wednesday, and Saia left town early Friday morning. For FOUR days. Though I was fine with him going, I was so scared at the same time. I had a million scenarios going through my head of getting nothing done, him coming home to the house a DISASTER, etc. I cried the whole way home from the airport. How was I going to take care of three kids? And Alone? Well let's just say it was NOTHING like I expected. Though the kids and I missed him terribly, things actually went fairly smoothly! Not only that, but I had time to clean! I deep cleaned the bathroom and our room as well. Lundry done! He came home to a clean kitchen, too. I am so impressed with myself, haha. All of that done with a two year old, one year old and newborn. Yes, I am superwoman, or that's at least how I felt.
Saia, by the way, was in Chicago for a rugby game. That kid is always going fun places, I swear! I'm glad, though, because he is truly such a hard worker, so when he has trips that he's able to take, I love for him to go and enjoy himself. He deserves it. He returned home late last night and though the kids haven't seen him yet, I know they will be SO excited when he's home from working today. Lyric always asks for daddy morning noon and night. She's such a daddy's girl.. And I love it!
Anyway, it's time I wrap this up. I have a peacefully sleeping baby in his swing and two crazy ratchet children who are in their beds SUPPOSED to be napping, but all they're doing is laughing and talking back and forth. Who could complain? I've had about 30 minutes so far to myself. Tv is off and I'm just enjoying everything around me. LIFE. IS. GOOD.
3.25.2013
I got my trash kicked!
3/19/13
So here I am, sitting in a hospital bed with a perfect, brand new baby by my side :) I keep thinking "wow, he is finally here!" I am absolutely in love with him. He makes up for the hell I went through last night and this morning, though its something I won't forget for a long long time. Lets just call it the perfect birth control because I by NO means want to go through all of that again!
Anyway, yesterday I had my drs appt at 1:45. I actually saw a nurse practitioner instead of my dr, but that was fine. She was extremely sweet. She checked my cervix and let me know I was a loose 4. Cool! Up one cm from last week. I then asked her to strip my membranes and lets just say she did a great job! If it wasn't for that uncomfortable procedure, I'm almost positive I'd still be home and pregnant right now. After the appt my mom and I took the kids to the park to walk around and hopefully get things started! It totally worked. It was a fun day at the park with the kids and pretty much as soon as I got home, the contractions began. Nothing painful or consistent, it just got uncomfortable here and there. Anyway by 9 I was noticing they were 6 minutes apart, then eventually about 4. Saia and I showered then headed for the hospital. Poor guy was so tired from work! As soon as we got into my l&d room, he was on the couch wrapped up in his blanket and O.U.T. He did at least let me know to wake him up if I needed him. Anyway, I was having regular contractions monitored at 5 min apart, but my cervix wasn't dilating anymore than a 4. The nurse spoke with my dr who decided to keep me there, because he was sure I was just in early labor, AND considering how fast my last labor and delivery was, they didn't want to send me home in fear I'd have the baby there. Anyway! So I closed my eyes and got as much sleep as I could. Because I had my other two at around 3:30, I was hoping for the same with this one. Well, clearly he wasn't ready but by about 6, I could tell I'd progressed. My contractions were really uncomfortable and I was having to breathe slowly through them. I asked for some pain medicine and whatever it was they gave me I did NOT like. Sure it helped with pain for the first 20 minutes, but then just left me feeling SO drugged to where all I could do was fall asleep! I'd be mid sentence with the nurse, then fall asleep out of no where. The drug started with a D I believe, and didn't wear off until HOURS after delivery. I had the same thing with lyric and definitely won't be going that route again!
So anyway, around 7-8 my dr came in and broke my water. I was already 8cm. I had asked about the epidural and they assured me that I'd have time to get it before delivering. The contractions sped up and intensified big time. I knew that the epidural wasn't going to kick in before I had this baby, but I thought I'd just have a little faith in the nurses words. FAITH MY ASS. I got the epidural, and though it numbed my legs completely, I felt everything from the groin area up... Which hello that's where I'd be feeling it anyway, even without that epidural. WORST PAIN OF MY LIFE. I wanted to cry and scream but could do neither. I just wanted to escape so badly. Saia was looking at me clueless as to what to do, and obviously there was nothing. I was being touched and moved by the nurses and though I stuck in a please when I said don't touch me, it was clear I wasn't a happy camper! I told the anesthesiologist that it wasn't working and he said he'd try and move it so I'd feel it working in that area. Well at that time I was getting another contraction, and he was trying to have me lean over. OUCH. I squeezed out "wait....." And he didn't listen. Then sternly I remember saying WAIT. PLEASE. Because it was just too much to bear at that point. I felt bad for feeling so ugly towards him, but at the same time I was hurting. Also, I'm sure things that are a lot worse have been yelled at him before haha.
After another failed attempt of fixing the epidural, it was time to push. Between the D drug that had me falling asleep and my legs that were BEYOND numb, I felt I had no energy to push and it started scaring me. I was truly having flashbacks of feeling the same way before being told I had to c section with lyric. It was 8:45am and I started thinking of lyric and Luve at home, who would be waking up shortly. I HAD to do this. For me, and for them. I couldn't be away from them for 3 days in the hospital. I missed them already. After 13 minutes, 4 long pushes and lots of "he's right there, and has tons of hair!" Speeches, he was out. I've never felt such relief. The pain instantly started to disappear. They laid him on my stomach after suctioning his nose and mouth and had saia cut the cord. He was all slimy and bloody but still so cute. I couldn't wait for the nurses to wash him off so I could really see him. He was born at 9am even, weighing 8lb and 21" long. He looked JUST like lyric as a newborn. We love him.
So here I am, sitting in a hospital bed with a perfect, brand new baby by my side :) I keep thinking "wow, he is finally here!" I am absolutely in love with him. He makes up for the hell I went through last night and this morning, though its something I won't forget for a long long time. Lets just call it the perfect birth control because I by NO means want to go through all of that again!
Anyway, yesterday I had my drs appt at 1:45. I actually saw a nurse practitioner instead of my dr, but that was fine. She was extremely sweet. She checked my cervix and let me know I was a loose 4. Cool! Up one cm from last week. I then asked her to strip my membranes and lets just say she did a great job! If it wasn't for that uncomfortable procedure, I'm almost positive I'd still be home and pregnant right now. After the appt my mom and I took the kids to the park to walk around and hopefully get things started! It totally worked. It was a fun day at the park with the kids and pretty much as soon as I got home, the contractions began. Nothing painful or consistent, it just got uncomfortable here and there. Anyway by 9 I was noticing they were 6 minutes apart, then eventually about 4. Saia and I showered then headed for the hospital. Poor guy was so tired from work! As soon as we got into my l&d room, he was on the couch wrapped up in his blanket and O.U.T. He did at least let me know to wake him up if I needed him. Anyway, I was having regular contractions monitored at 5 min apart, but my cervix wasn't dilating anymore than a 4. The nurse spoke with my dr who decided to keep me there, because he was sure I was just in early labor, AND considering how fast my last labor and delivery was, they didn't want to send me home in fear I'd have the baby there. Anyway! So I closed my eyes and got as much sleep as I could. Because I had my other two at around 3:30, I was hoping for the same with this one. Well, clearly he wasn't ready but by about 6, I could tell I'd progressed. My contractions were really uncomfortable and I was having to breathe slowly through them. I asked for some pain medicine and whatever it was they gave me I did NOT like. Sure it helped with pain for the first 20 minutes, but then just left me feeling SO drugged to where all I could do was fall asleep! I'd be mid sentence with the nurse, then fall asleep out of no where. The drug started with a D I believe, and didn't wear off until HOURS after delivery. I had the same thing with lyric and definitely won't be going that route again!
So anyway, around 7-8 my dr came in and broke my water. I was already 8cm. I had asked about the epidural and they assured me that I'd have time to get it before delivering. The contractions sped up and intensified big time. I knew that the epidural wasn't going to kick in before I had this baby, but I thought I'd just have a little faith in the nurses words. FAITH MY ASS. I got the epidural, and though it numbed my legs completely, I felt everything from the groin area up... Which hello that's where I'd be feeling it anyway, even without that epidural. WORST PAIN OF MY LIFE. I wanted to cry and scream but could do neither. I just wanted to escape so badly. Saia was looking at me clueless as to what to do, and obviously there was nothing. I was being touched and moved by the nurses and though I stuck in a please when I said don't touch me, it was clear I wasn't a happy camper! I told the anesthesiologist that it wasn't working and he said he'd try and move it so I'd feel it working in that area. Well at that time I was getting another contraction, and he was trying to have me lean over. OUCH. I squeezed out "wait....." And he didn't listen. Then sternly I remember saying WAIT. PLEASE. Because it was just too much to bear at that point. I felt bad for feeling so ugly towards him, but at the same time I was hurting. Also, I'm sure things that are a lot worse have been yelled at him before haha.
After another failed attempt of fixing the epidural, it was time to push. Between the D drug that had me falling asleep and my legs that were BEYOND numb, I felt I had no energy to push and it started scaring me. I was truly having flashbacks of feeling the same way before being told I had to c section with lyric. It was 8:45am and I started thinking of lyric and Luve at home, who would be waking up shortly. I HAD to do this. For me, and for them. I couldn't be away from them for 3 days in the hospital. I missed them already. After 13 minutes, 4 long pushes and lots of "he's right there, and has tons of hair!" Speeches, he was out. I've never felt such relief. The pain instantly started to disappear. They laid him on my stomach after suctioning his nose and mouth and had saia cut the cord. He was all slimy and bloody but still so cute. I couldn't wait for the nurses to wash him off so I could really see him. He was born at 9am even, weighing 8lb and 21" long. He looked JUST like lyric as a newborn. We love him.
3.11.2013
Today could be the day...
...or next week, or the 21st.
BUT WHAT IF ITS TODAY? Oh my. Imagine that! Am I ready to meet him? Is everything ready for him? Wellllllll no, not quite, but it could be! I've washed the car seat but need to put it back together, I've prepared his little pack & play bassinet but need to get some blankets in there for him. I need to buy some NB diapers, too, but those are all things Saia could do before we come home. I'm getting back in the excited phase :) so excited to see and meet him!
So Thursday I had an ultrasound. This kids head is measuring at 41 weeks. I'm sorry, WHAT..? Not cool. The rest of him was measuring a little over 38, so needless to say, if he goes full term he's gonna be a big boy! For the sake of my girl parts, I hope he comes sooner. I had the ultrasound tech check if he still has his boy parts or if by some miracle he was actually a she, and maybe the last ultrasound picked up the cord or a thumb between the babies legs. Well, he's definitely a boy and had absolutely no shame showing off his boy parts! Hopefully one day ill have another girl. At least one. My princess needs a sister. And I want them to be close friends. Sadly they'll be at least 5 yrs apart if my next is a girl. I'm waiting at least two years to have another! I need no kids in diapers before adding another! We shall see. That was my plan after Luve but obviously that didn't turn out as anticipated. :)
Anyway, Friday I had my actual drs appt. The dr went over the ultrasound results with me, confirming he would be a bigger baby, and said he needed to do the culture test or something. Basically that strep b check. I had it with lyric but didn't with Luve... So it's a toss up whether I will this time around or not. Well while he was down under he said he'd check if I was dilated, and I was shocked to hear that I was already 3cm! 1 day short of 37 weeks and already to a 3! My cervix is thinned and baby is pretty low, so labor is near! I know all pregnancies are different, but with lyric and Luve both, I was only 1 1/2 cm before going into labor. With lyric I was admitted to the hospital at about 4cm and was dying in pain. With Luve, my water broke (well, had a tear and was leaking slowly as well as gushed once - which I thought was all the water, until the dr broke it the rest of the way at the hospital and the floods were released!) and anyway, I was almost 6cm feeling NO pain or contractions at all. It was wonderful :) I'm hoping for the same this time around. So my dr told me Friday that he would not be on call this weekend, and if I went into labor he can't guarantee my vbac we have planned. So to say the least, I was lazy and didn't move much all weekend. I did not want to risk going into labor and having some woman dr tell me I had to have a c section because she wasn't comfortable delivering a vbac. That irritates me as it is. This is my second vbac, so I've already proven that my body can do it. Why do they even consider the second one a vbac? Maybe they should say vbavbac. Technically that's what it is. Whatever. Had I gone into labor I would have told the lady to move aside and my husband will catch the child lol. WOOOO GET READY SAIA! Just kidding. But truly I would refuse a csection UNLESS of course it was because something was going wrong with myself or the baby.
So anyway that's my story. Today ill be walking laps.... Around Walmart, eating spicy food and pineapple and bouncing on my yoga ball. I won't be surprised if I go into labor tonight. Oh also I've been waiting because saia has tomorrow off, so it'd just be easier to have he baby a day he's already off. Just less to worry about. I'd hate to go into labor while he's at work and have to try and contact him there to come home early etc. too much of a hassle! So cross your fingers and toes people of the Internet, and send me lots of good luck for a fast healthy and easy delivery.. Hopefully soon.
BUT WHAT IF ITS TODAY? Oh my. Imagine that! Am I ready to meet him? Is everything ready for him? Wellllllll no, not quite, but it could be! I've washed the car seat but need to put it back together, I've prepared his little pack & play bassinet but need to get some blankets in there for him. I need to buy some NB diapers, too, but those are all things Saia could do before we come home. I'm getting back in the excited phase :) so excited to see and meet him!
So Thursday I had an ultrasound. This kids head is measuring at 41 weeks. I'm sorry, WHAT..? Not cool. The rest of him was measuring a little over 38, so needless to say, if he goes full term he's gonna be a big boy! For the sake of my girl parts, I hope he comes sooner. I had the ultrasound tech check if he still has his boy parts or if by some miracle he was actually a she, and maybe the last ultrasound picked up the cord or a thumb between the babies legs. Well, he's definitely a boy and had absolutely no shame showing off his boy parts! Hopefully one day ill have another girl. At least one. My princess needs a sister. And I want them to be close friends. Sadly they'll be at least 5 yrs apart if my next is a girl. I'm waiting at least two years to have another! I need no kids in diapers before adding another! We shall see. That was my plan after Luve but obviously that didn't turn out as anticipated. :)
Anyway, Friday I had my actual drs appt. The dr went over the ultrasound results with me, confirming he would be a bigger baby, and said he needed to do the culture test or something. Basically that strep b check. I had it with lyric but didn't with Luve... So it's a toss up whether I will this time around or not. Well while he was down under he said he'd check if I was dilated, and I was shocked to hear that I was already 3cm! 1 day short of 37 weeks and already to a 3! My cervix is thinned and baby is pretty low, so labor is near! I know all pregnancies are different, but with lyric and Luve both, I was only 1 1/2 cm before going into labor. With lyric I was admitted to the hospital at about 4cm and was dying in pain. With Luve, my water broke (well, had a tear and was leaking slowly as well as gushed once - which I thought was all the water, until the dr broke it the rest of the way at the hospital and the floods were released!) and anyway, I was almost 6cm feeling NO pain or contractions at all. It was wonderful :) I'm hoping for the same this time around. So my dr told me Friday that he would not be on call this weekend, and if I went into labor he can't guarantee my vbac we have planned. So to say the least, I was lazy and didn't move much all weekend. I did not want to risk going into labor and having some woman dr tell me I had to have a c section because she wasn't comfortable delivering a vbac. That irritates me as it is. This is my second vbac, so I've already proven that my body can do it. Why do they even consider the second one a vbac? Maybe they should say vbavbac. Technically that's what it is. Whatever. Had I gone into labor I would have told the lady to move aside and my husband will catch the child lol. WOOOO GET READY SAIA! Just kidding. But truly I would refuse a csection UNLESS of course it was because something was going wrong with myself or the baby.
So anyway that's my story. Today ill be walking laps.... Around Walmart, eating spicy food and pineapple and bouncing on my yoga ball. I won't be surprised if I go into labor tonight. Oh also I've been waiting because saia has tomorrow off, so it'd just be easier to have he baby a day he's already off. Just less to worry about. I'd hate to go into labor while he's at work and have to try and contact him there to come home early etc. too much of a hassle! So cross your fingers and toes people of the Internet, and send me lots of good luck for a fast healthy and easy delivery.. Hopefully soon.
3.06.2013
Why am I so nervous?
Being that I'm currently pregnant with baby #3, you'd think I'd be more relaxed, right? Well I'm not! With Lyric, she was of course my first and I had no idea what I was in for. Sure I read PLENTY and heard even more stories and advice from family and friends, but because I knew every situation was different, I knew I couldn't really imagine what my labor/delivery would be like. Boy, wasn't that the truth! A 23+ hr labor, 8 hrs of pushing and an emergency c section were truly never in my thoughts! Neither was the severity of the pain. With Luve, my second, I was SO focused on having a successful VBAC that I had no time to worry about anything else. I was overly determined to have him vaginally, knowing how hard the recovery from a c section would be especially having lyric at home. It just wasn't an option in my heart or mind. Through the power of prayer which included my determined heart, I delivered him VBAC about 2 1/2 weeks before his due date. When he came out I honestly was kind of out of it, focussing more on the fact that he was born vaginally and we were BOTH safe and healthy rather than the fact that my brand new baby boy was just born, laying there on my chest. Then I had to get that placenta out. GROSS.
So anyway, this time around, I'm freaking out and SO nervous! I hesitate taking the kids for a walk around the block incase my water breaks and I go into labor, and I'm even super careful while playing horsey with lyric (I'm the horse, duh lol) because what if my water breaks!! Lol it's all I focus on. Hello, Andie, it's gonna happen one way or another. It's like I'm putting it off. Partially because during this pregnancy I've developed a REALLY weak stomach and truly anything labor related makes me want to gag! But the other huge part is because I am about to meet this little guy! Another little person that Saia and I have created. WE are about to meet our third child, our second son. Will we be what he expects? I'm so nervous. He has chosen us, this I know, but will we live up to all he wants and needs? What is he going to look like, sound like, will he be a great sleeper like his brother and sister? (Fingers crossed lol). I'm almost as nervous as I would be on the first day of going to a new school, or starting a new job, not knowing anyone there. I'm going to meet this little guy who has been kicking me like CRAZY in my ribs the past month and tucking his tiny feet under there, which is obviously comfortable for him, but not so much for me. Is he going to be a little rascal? What is he going to like? HOW ARE LYRIC AND LUVE GOING TO REACT? So many questions. That is another thing I wonder, how will my two babies NOW react and respond to him? Lyric loves babies, but those babies aren't ours. They don't have to share constant attention, and don't stay forever. She's had to share Saia and I with Luve since she was 14mo, but she was so young then she had no idea what was going on. Not to mention she really couldn't stand the kid and All his crying haha. Getting her to take a picture holding him was SO far out of the question. She would push his head until he was off of her. Luckily now she understands being gentle and nice, so I know I won't have to worry about that. LUVE on the other hand, where do I start? He is 14mo now just as lyric was when he was born, but he's SUCH a mummy's boy. So attached to me and so jealous when he doesn't get attention. He's the kid who cries/whines when I leave him to go to the bathroom, even though its only for 2 minutes. Lyric is so independent and could care less. She'll just play until I get back. Luve tends to be pretty clingy and though he loves his independence as well, he's really into climbing on me and just being close. I make him happy which I love. There is no greater joy than feeling love from your child. Truly. And unfortunately I'm now getting a little teary eyed. My little boog is gonna have to share me with someone else. I shouldn't be feeling guilt, because his feelings will be temporary and he will learn to love his baby brother, but I can hardly help it. As a mother you want your children to always be happy. I just hope he adjusts well.. And not to mention, I hope this new little guy adjusts well to his brother and sister as well. My prayer is that they all grow up super close, and watch over/protect each other.
I can't believe I will soon have three children. THREE.
Saia comes from a family of 12. Yes, 12 kids. Same beautiful mom and same great dad. I still try and comprehend it. Anyway, he's used to a big family. Of course this is new as we have three kids of our own now, that WE created and that WE are responsible for, but none the less, he's used to lots of people being around. Well, I have one brother. Juuuuust one. So it was always only the two of us. I never had to "share" with a sister, or anything like that. We were very much our own people with our own rooms, things and friends. The only things we shared were arguements ;) just kidding. But anyway, I'm now breaking out of the "family of four" mold. I'm having more kids than my parents did! I think this adds to my worry about baby #3. Only because I'm not sure what to expect.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I'm excited to meet this little guy and can't wait to show him off to the world. I'm grateful for the family Saia and I have, and am so grateful we are being blessed with another little soul.
So anyway, this time around, I'm freaking out and SO nervous! I hesitate taking the kids for a walk around the block incase my water breaks and I go into labor, and I'm even super careful while playing horsey with lyric (I'm the horse, duh lol) because what if my water breaks!! Lol it's all I focus on. Hello, Andie, it's gonna happen one way or another. It's like I'm putting it off. Partially because during this pregnancy I've developed a REALLY weak stomach and truly anything labor related makes me want to gag! But the other huge part is because I am about to meet this little guy! Another little person that Saia and I have created. WE are about to meet our third child, our second son. Will we be what he expects? I'm so nervous. He has chosen us, this I know, but will we live up to all he wants and needs? What is he going to look like, sound like, will he be a great sleeper like his brother and sister? (Fingers crossed lol). I'm almost as nervous as I would be on the first day of going to a new school, or starting a new job, not knowing anyone there. I'm going to meet this little guy who has been kicking me like CRAZY in my ribs the past month and tucking his tiny feet under there, which is obviously comfortable for him, but not so much for me. Is he going to be a little rascal? What is he going to like? HOW ARE LYRIC AND LUVE GOING TO REACT? So many questions. That is another thing I wonder, how will my two babies NOW react and respond to him? Lyric loves babies, but those babies aren't ours. They don't have to share constant attention, and don't stay forever. She's had to share Saia and I with Luve since she was 14mo, but she was so young then she had no idea what was going on. Not to mention she really couldn't stand the kid and All his crying haha. Getting her to take a picture holding him was SO far out of the question. She would push his head until he was off of her. Luckily now she understands being gentle and nice, so I know I won't have to worry about that. LUVE on the other hand, where do I start? He is 14mo now just as lyric was when he was born, but he's SUCH a mummy's boy. So attached to me and so jealous when he doesn't get attention. He's the kid who cries/whines when I leave him to go to the bathroom, even though its only for 2 minutes. Lyric is so independent and could care less. She'll just play until I get back. Luve tends to be pretty clingy and though he loves his independence as well, he's really into climbing on me and just being close. I make him happy which I love. There is no greater joy than feeling love from your child. Truly. And unfortunately I'm now getting a little teary eyed. My little boog is gonna have to share me with someone else. I shouldn't be feeling guilt, because his feelings will be temporary and he will learn to love his baby brother, but I can hardly help it. As a mother you want your children to always be happy. I just hope he adjusts well.. And not to mention, I hope this new little guy adjusts well to his brother and sister as well. My prayer is that they all grow up super close, and watch over/protect each other.
I can't believe I will soon have three children. THREE.
Saia comes from a family of 12. Yes, 12 kids. Same beautiful mom and same great dad. I still try and comprehend it. Anyway, he's used to a big family. Of course this is new as we have three kids of our own now, that WE created and that WE are responsible for, but none the less, he's used to lots of people being around. Well, I have one brother. Juuuuust one. So it was always only the two of us. I never had to "share" with a sister, or anything like that. We were very much our own people with our own rooms, things and friends. The only things we shared were arguements ;) just kidding. But anyway, I'm now breaking out of the "family of four" mold. I'm having more kids than my parents did! I think this adds to my worry about baby #3. Only because I'm not sure what to expect.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I'm excited to meet this little guy and can't wait to show him off to the world. I'm grateful for the family Saia and I have, and am so grateful we are being blessed with another little soul.
3.05.2013
Progress!
More and more progress lately! I'm so impressed with my babies, and so happy that things are rolling semi smoothly as well. This past weekend I began putting lyric in her big girl loft bed. I was so afraid that she would fall off the bed, or be afraid to sleep somewhere else other than her crib, but it was such an easy/smooth transition! She's been sleeping up there every night and nap since. So yesterday was her fourth night and I figured its time to try and get Luve into their (now) shared room and into lyrics old crib. Wellllllll the kid cried for a good 25 minutes before falling asleep. It was a little rough but I knew he was tired and would eventually fall asleep. He did and I was then able to get lyric into her bed for the night. Our goal is obviously that once Luve is comfortable sleeping in there, that ill be able to put them down for bed at the same time. Hopefully soon!
Now lets fast forward to today. Well first lets start by saying that my kids generally sleep till 9-9:30. YES I REALIZE HOW EXTREMELY LUCKY I AM! Anyway, on days saia works, I usually wake Luve up with us around 5:45 to change his diaper and fill his bottle for him. I think that's what carries him over to 9:30 in the mornings. So this morning I figured since I wasn't going to do that, he would probably wake up early.. And wake up lyric as well. Welp! I was right! He woke up about 8:15, which isn't bad at all, but still earlier than normal. S they were both up. NOW fast forward to 11:30, nap time. I put Luve down and surprisingly there was no crying like we went through last night. 30 min later, I put lyric up on her bed. I closed the door and was shocked realizing how easy this has been! But then, the giggling began. Lyric started laughing and saying wake up bubba! Because she's in a loft bed up high, she can clearly see into his crib. She obviously wants to play! So now, 20 minutes later, I'm still listening to them in there. Do I leave them to fall asleep, or should I go fill their drinks and put them back down? I think it's quite funny and cute, just hearing the little babbling conversations they're having. It is funny and cute, but won't be either of those this afternoon if they don't get some sleep now! Lord help me.
Once this little hurdle is done, potty training here we come! Wish us luck :) 16 days until baby #3 joins our family! Xo
Now lets fast forward to today. Well first lets start by saying that my kids generally sleep till 9-9:30. YES I REALIZE HOW EXTREMELY LUCKY I AM! Anyway, on days saia works, I usually wake Luve up with us around 5:45 to change his diaper and fill his bottle for him. I think that's what carries him over to 9:30 in the mornings. So this morning I figured since I wasn't going to do that, he would probably wake up early.. And wake up lyric as well. Welp! I was right! He woke up about 8:15, which isn't bad at all, but still earlier than normal. S they were both up. NOW fast forward to 11:30, nap time. I put Luve down and surprisingly there was no crying like we went through last night. 30 min later, I put lyric up on her bed. I closed the door and was shocked realizing how easy this has been! But then, the giggling began. Lyric started laughing and saying wake up bubba! Because she's in a loft bed up high, she can clearly see into his crib. She obviously wants to play! So now, 20 minutes later, I'm still listening to them in there. Do I leave them to fall asleep, or should I go fill their drinks and put them back down? I think it's quite funny and cute, just hearing the little babbling conversations they're having. It is funny and cute, but won't be either of those this afternoon if they don't get some sleep now! Lord help me.
Once this little hurdle is done, potty training here we come! Wish us luck :) 16 days until baby #3 joins our family! Xo
3.01.2013
He's getting there!!
So Luve turned one January 12th. Honestly, walking was at that point NO WHERE in the near future. It kind of made me sad! Well actually it made my body sad, especially being so far in my pregnancy and knowing I'd still have to carry this 23+ lb baby around! So anyway, yesterday, feb 28th, he took his first steps ALL by himself! He truly didn't even realize it until he had taken about 4 steps, and after those 4 he leaned down and crawled away. Then a few times later that day he did the same thing! We are so proud of him, and my back thanks him. :) he's not an independent walker, but seeing THAT in our future makes me so excited. Especially knowing we are expanding our family within the next three weeks! Another little milestone we have finally crossed is waving and clapping! Well he's been waving for a few weeks now but just today at lunch he started clapping right along with lyric & I! So proud. My baby is growing up! Anyone who knows Luve knows he has this funny personality. He chooses when someone is worth his time, laughs, etc. everything is on HIS watch. He's very observant and is obviously taking his time in life. I can respect that! ;) he does totally pull the "baby" card though. Anyone else would think he's oblivious to the things I say, because he plays them all off, but I'm no fool! Mama knows best. He totally understands me when I say no, though he pretends to have no idea. I love this little character toooooo much. He's such a mama's boy and I already know he's gonna have a hard time when his brother arrives in only a few weeks.
On another not so positive note, lyric isn't potty trained, and Luve is still sleeping in our room. Ahh! I really need to fix all of that ASAP! After all, there are only 3 weeks left (if I make it that long!) until we add another little blessing to the mix. I need to get it over with now, before I struggle once baby #3 arrives and I have 3 in diapers and these kids still haven't adjusted to sharing a room. Prayers are totally welcome.
On another not so positive note, lyric isn't potty trained, and Luve is still sleeping in our room. Ahh! I really need to fix all of that ASAP! After all, there are only 3 weeks left (if I make it that long!) until we add another little blessing to the mix. I need to get it over with now, before I struggle once baby #3 arrives and I have 3 in diapers and these kids still haven't adjusted to sharing a room. Prayers are totally welcome.
2.08.2013
TGIF!
Just kidding, this Friday is no different than a Wednesday or any other day of the week! I just wanted to take a moment out of my busy schedule (of making our meal plan/grocery list for the week) to chat! And by chat I mean me chatting, to whoever you are, through my blog. Cool.
Ok so I'm currently feeling like June. No, not the month, but honey booboo's mom. (Confession, I love that show.) ANYWAY! If you don't know who she is, or I should say what she looks like, then google her now. I'll wait.
So yes, I feel like a vulumptuous whale.. I mean woman. I'm at that point in my pregnancy where I'm just too large to function! My Braxton hicks are a little out of control as well. I'm just no longer comfortable. If standing, I want to sit... But then when I sit, my pants are pushing on my stomach and this little fella goes WILD doing his karate routine, or so it seems. My ribs and pelvis bone get beat like the lakers lately. Baaaaaad. Hahah ;) (not a lakers fan). Anyway so that's me. Andie aka June. Sitting with my legs apart because pulling them in together just isn't even possible. I even get up off the couch like an extremely obese person, scooting towards the edge and rocking myself while pushing up to get off of it. THIS IS CRAZY. No I don't want this baby to come out early, but at the same time can you please stop growing? Well actually if just I could stop expanding in all areas, that'd be real great. Grow baby, grow.... Just don't drag me with you.
**counting down the days...... Until I can count down these pounds**
Ok so I'm currently feeling like June. No, not the month, but honey booboo's mom. (Confession, I love that show.) ANYWAY! If you don't know who she is, or I should say what she looks like, then google her now. I'll wait.
So yes, I feel like a vulumptuous whale.. I mean woman. I'm at that point in my pregnancy where I'm just too large to function! My Braxton hicks are a little out of control as well. I'm just no longer comfortable. If standing, I want to sit... But then when I sit, my pants are pushing on my stomach and this little fella goes WILD doing his karate routine, or so it seems. My ribs and pelvis bone get beat like the lakers lately. Baaaaaad. Hahah ;) (not a lakers fan). Anyway so that's me. Andie aka June. Sitting with my legs apart because pulling them in together just isn't even possible. I even get up off the couch like an extremely obese person, scooting towards the edge and rocking myself while pushing up to get off of it. THIS IS CRAZY. No I don't want this baby to come out early, but at the same time can you please stop growing? Well actually if just I could stop expanding in all areas, that'd be real great. Grow baby, grow.... Just don't drag me with you.
**counting down the days...... Until I can count down these pounds**
2.05.2013
Shhh it's a secret
Have any of you (as if I have 727483930 readers haha) read the secret? Or perhaps watched the documentary? I hope you have. If not, I highly recommend it! So anyway I was watching The Steve Harvey show yesterday, and he was talking about it. I had watched the secret a few years back and talked with my mom about it as well. It's all about the law of attraction, which is REAL. Its basically explaining that "like attracts like" - for example, if you're positive, you'll attract positive. If you are a negative Nancy, you'll attract more negativity into your life. It's all about the way we are, and how we feel/think. So cute little Mr. Harvey was explaining to his audience and viewers a few of the principles explained in The Secret. "If you can see it, you can hold it in your hands", "ask, believe, receive", and a few others that have slipped my mind at the moment! Anyway, the first he basically explained that if you can see that new car, you can have it. So make a poster of the things you want, whether it be a new car, money, a goal weight, etc. THEN, ask for it. Ask, believe, receive. Isn't that what we are taught in the bible? The Lord says "..ask and ye shall receive.." It's so real and true.
So where am I going with all of this...? WELL a few years ago, back in the fall of 2009, I had made a poster or VISION BOARD as I called it. I drew pictures of things I wanted. I looked at it daily for a good month or two I'd say, then it eventually was tucked away. When saia and I were moving to Texas, I found it while packing and was truly floored. I had received EVERY.SINGLE.THING. No lie. Well ok everything except one... I wanted to be a smaller size and due to being pregnant, I wasn't that size haha... But honestly every other thing on that vision board had come to me, I had it! It was kind of creepy actually, but cool, just knowing the power I had to truly shape my life! Again ill say, the law of attraction is real.
So now? I'm making a new board! I'm going to focus on the positive and let these new things fall into my life. The Lord truly does work in mysterious ways, and I love it. I'm excited for 2013 and what it has to offer us.. Other than the obvious, a new baby. :)
So on a completely different note, I have Braxton hicks like CRAZY lately! I never noticed them with lyric but totally did with Luve. I'm hoping and praying my labor is just like it was with Luve, too! Incase you never read that post, I was basically dilated to an 8 before feeling ANY contractions, and only pushed for 16 minutes before he joined us in this world. It was AMAZING compared to my prior c section with lyric! It was some kind of miracle that I wanted and wished for, and received! Fingers crosses this time around :) I've only got a few weeks left and we can't hardly wait to meet our little guy.
So where am I going with all of this...? WELL a few years ago, back in the fall of 2009, I had made a poster or VISION BOARD as I called it. I drew pictures of things I wanted. I looked at it daily for a good month or two I'd say, then it eventually was tucked away. When saia and I were moving to Texas, I found it while packing and was truly floored. I had received EVERY.SINGLE.THING. No lie. Well ok everything except one... I wanted to be a smaller size and due to being pregnant, I wasn't that size haha... But honestly every other thing on that vision board had come to me, I had it! It was kind of creepy actually, but cool, just knowing the power I had to truly shape my life! Again ill say, the law of attraction is real.
So now? I'm making a new board! I'm going to focus on the positive and let these new things fall into my life. The Lord truly does work in mysterious ways, and I love it. I'm excited for 2013 and what it has to offer us.. Other than the obvious, a new baby. :)
So on a completely different note, I have Braxton hicks like CRAZY lately! I never noticed them with lyric but totally did with Luve. I'm hoping and praying my labor is just like it was with Luve, too! Incase you never read that post, I was basically dilated to an 8 before feeling ANY contractions, and only pushed for 16 minutes before he joined us in this world. It was AMAZING compared to my prior c section with lyric! It was some kind of miracle that I wanted and wished for, and received! Fingers crosses this time around :) I've only got a few weeks left and we can't hardly wait to meet our little guy.
2.03.2013
Hungry? Grab a ......
I just saw a snickers commercial, and to me they're all pretty dumb. Who came up with the slogan for them? Who really wants a snickers if they're hungry? I'd prefer a sandwich or something... Wouldn't you!? I mean snickers are good, but nothing that would cure my hunger or anything!
Anyway, so this past week flew by, and I can't get over the fact that its already the second week of February! Well, you know what I mean. February is short as it is! So it's tax season. WOOOOHOOOO! We love tax season. Thank you turbo tax for your easy online methods of filing taxes, and for the 8k+ we are to receive. Ohh but wait, unfortunately we owe quite a bit on some student loans and the govt decided they'd intercept that refund and pay themselves a little faster than we would have or even could have.
Yes, that really just happened. Yes I cried a little, a few times that day I found out. But alas, I am over it. Though I'm sure anyone would gladly accept 8k, I am also grateful that those 8k didn't come out of our pocket per say. That's a huge relief. That's a lot of debt that would have taken us a long time to pay off! We are now THAT much closer to being debt free.. Which is a great feeling! So now that our plan A is no longer an option, I am working hard on plan B. I know this happening truly is a blessing in the long run, so in a small teeny tiny part of my head and heart, I am grateful this has happened. But that's probably the only time ill admit to it ;).
So with all of that going on, I'm doing lots of planning. Not only financially, but in other areas of our life as well! I know I've said this before, possibly a hundred times, but I love Pinterest. It seriously inspires me! I really am slightly obsessed.. And truly I think that had Pinterest not been around, I would have never been able to break up with Facebook. It has just made the transition so much easier. But back to where I was going with all of this, on the "planning" topic. I've figured out that everything is so much easier with a little plan. Even life! I've planned out my cleaning and laundry schedules, my daily "what to do" issue has been solved, and I've realized that I need to start doing something for me! So once or twice a month I'm going to start tackling a new craft or hobby, just something I can spend ME time on that will make me feel good. Whether it be something for the kids room or a decoration for our future home or whatever, I am excited! Creating is so much fun, which is why I'm sure I love baking as well.
So I'm super excited about a happier healthier me, and a cleaner house! With one area per day to deep clean, I will be SO MUCH less stressed. I can feel it already. I'm always so concerned about having the whole house perfect before saia comes home each day, and it gets stressful just thinking about it. But with deep cleaning one area per day, I know the house in general will stay cleaner and feel better. I know it's this spring weather that's getting to me, as well as the "nesting" period I'm currently in.. But I love it. I love feeling productive, it's a great feeling!
With allllllllllll of that being said, the last thing I'd like to touch on is this little gentleman who is still growing inside of me. He's due in a mere month and a half. Our family of four will be a family of five. FIIIIIIVE. This is HUGE for me, because I've always only known of a family of four. I only had one brother, so it was always just four of us! Well not any longer! It's going to be a huge adjustment, I already know it, but I'm so excited for it! It's crazy we have been blessed with three healthy babies! I am so excited about our future and what else is to come. My plan is to wait atleeeeeast a year and a half - two years before having another. But we shall see!!!
Anyway, so this past week flew by, and I can't get over the fact that its already the second week of February! Well, you know what I mean. February is short as it is! So it's tax season. WOOOOHOOOO! We love tax season. Thank you turbo tax for your easy online methods of filing taxes, and for the 8k+ we are to receive. Ohh but wait, unfortunately we owe quite a bit on some student loans and the govt decided they'd intercept that refund and pay themselves a little faster than we would have or even could have.
Yes, that really just happened. Yes I cried a little, a few times that day I found out. But alas, I am over it. Though I'm sure anyone would gladly accept 8k, I am also grateful that those 8k didn't come out of our pocket per say. That's a huge relief. That's a lot of debt that would have taken us a long time to pay off! We are now THAT much closer to being debt free.. Which is a great feeling! So now that our plan A is no longer an option, I am working hard on plan B. I know this happening truly is a blessing in the long run, so in a small teeny tiny part of my head and heart, I am grateful this has happened. But that's probably the only time ill admit to it ;).
So with all of that going on, I'm doing lots of planning. Not only financially, but in other areas of our life as well! I know I've said this before, possibly a hundred times, but I love Pinterest. It seriously inspires me! I really am slightly obsessed.. And truly I think that had Pinterest not been around, I would have never been able to break up with Facebook. It has just made the transition so much easier. But back to where I was going with all of this, on the "planning" topic. I've figured out that everything is so much easier with a little plan. Even life! I've planned out my cleaning and laundry schedules, my daily "what to do" issue has been solved, and I've realized that I need to start doing something for me! So once or twice a month I'm going to start tackling a new craft or hobby, just something I can spend ME time on that will make me feel good. Whether it be something for the kids room or a decoration for our future home or whatever, I am excited! Creating is so much fun, which is why I'm sure I love baking as well.
So I'm super excited about a happier healthier me, and a cleaner house! With one area per day to deep clean, I will be SO MUCH less stressed. I can feel it already. I'm always so concerned about having the whole house perfect before saia comes home each day, and it gets stressful just thinking about it. But with deep cleaning one area per day, I know the house in general will stay cleaner and feel better. I know it's this spring weather that's getting to me, as well as the "nesting" period I'm currently in.. But I love it. I love feeling productive, it's a great feeling!
With allllllllllll of that being said, the last thing I'd like to touch on is this little gentleman who is still growing inside of me. He's due in a mere month and a half. Our family of four will be a family of five. FIIIIIIVE. This is HUGE for me, because I've always only known of a family of four. I only had one brother, so it was always just four of us! Well not any longer! It's going to be a huge adjustment, I already know it, but I'm so excited for it! It's crazy we have been blessed with three healthy babies! I am so excited about our future and what else is to come. My plan is to wait atleeeeeast a year and a half - two years before having another. But we shall see!!!
1.17.2013
I can never think of a clever/catchy title....
Heyyyyy!! So I'm posting this using our ipad, and though I LOVE this thing, it really is just NOT ideal for typing long posts or anything like that. It gets rather annoying actually! But until our laptop is fixed, this is what I'll use :)
Anyway! This past Saturday was our baby boys FIRST birthday! I'm still trying to process that he's a whole year old! Time sure has flown. Well, Saia's brother vikia joined us the night before, and Saturday was filled with RUGBY! I love being at Saia's games supporting him. Even during our dating days, it was something I truly loved. I've grown to love and respect that sport completely! It's so fun watching him engage in something he is so passionate about. He grew up playing rugby and I know he looks forward to the practices and games each week. Rugby truly is one of his greatest talents and I couldn't be more proud of him! So anyway after the loooong day of rugby, we headed to Green Mesquite BBQ in Austin, TX to share dinner and conversation with some of Saia's team mates. It was a fun time but I was SO ready to get my two tired babies home and in their beds! Once home we actually had cake and sang happy birthday to our handsome boy. He dug into his cake and was just absolutely LOVING being messy! We attempted to light a lantern and send it off with a wish for him, but the wind was just WAY too strong. Saia kept saying have faith haha but as soon as the lantern rose about 30 feet, the wind picked up and threw it down into a neighbors yard. TALK ABOUT A HEART ATTACK. I was so afraid of something catching fire but luckily that didn't happen. The kids has baths then went right to bed. It was such a busy day! I would love to upload pictures, but you see the way this ipad is setup, I CAN'T. Lol or at least I don't know how to quite yet!
On another note, I have 9 weeks left till I have this baby!! What the heck? Dear Father Time, please slow your roll.
Love, Andie.
Anyway! This past Saturday was our baby boys FIRST birthday! I'm still trying to process that he's a whole year old! Time sure has flown. Well, Saia's brother vikia joined us the night before, and Saturday was filled with RUGBY! I love being at Saia's games supporting him. Even during our dating days, it was something I truly loved. I've grown to love and respect that sport completely! It's so fun watching him engage in something he is so passionate about. He grew up playing rugby and I know he looks forward to the practices and games each week. Rugby truly is one of his greatest talents and I couldn't be more proud of him! So anyway after the loooong day of rugby, we headed to Green Mesquite BBQ in Austin, TX to share dinner and conversation with some of Saia's team mates. It was a fun time but I was SO ready to get my two tired babies home and in their beds! Once home we actually had cake and sang happy birthday to our handsome boy. He dug into his cake and was just absolutely LOVING being messy! We attempted to light a lantern and send it off with a wish for him, but the wind was just WAY too strong. Saia kept saying have faith haha but as soon as the lantern rose about 30 feet, the wind picked up and threw it down into a neighbors yard. TALK ABOUT A HEART ATTACK. I was so afraid of something catching fire but luckily that didn't happen. The kids has baths then went right to bed. It was such a busy day! I would love to upload pictures, but you see the way this ipad is setup, I CAN'T. Lol or at least I don't know how to quite yet!
On another note, I have 9 weeks left till I have this baby!! What the heck? Dear Father Time, please slow your roll.
Love, Andie.
1.11.2013
ANOTHER POST!
I swear when I blog, it encourages me to go back and read what I wrote, even if just a few days before... and then I feel like writing some more! Not that I really have anything cool to talk about or document, BUT i'll figure something out! I'm kind of starting to realize that this blog is kinda like when i talk to myself in my head... actually it's exactly that. Except im documenting it. Ok that sounds pathetic, but as a stay at home mother with two kids, REALISTICALLY, you really do talk to yourself alot. Or atleast I do. There's my confession.
So as I sit here, LOUDLY crunching on this crushed ice, it makes me think back on my pregnancies. Before getting pregnant with lyric, i never chewed ice. Never. I even hated when other people would do it because it was SO loud and annoying, even with their mouth closed. Well, being pregnant with Luve and now this little guy, i CRAVE the hell out of it!!! Not that it has any taste, but just the coldness and crunchy-ness it has.. it's just perfect. If Saia and I are talking about it, my mouth will literally start to water and i'll have to get some from the freezer. I've read that it's due to a lack of Iron.. but I take my prenatal vitamins pretty religiously and still suffer this problem. It's not a problem to me though, it's just amazing. Im sure another pregnant person out there (current or prior) has experienced this same joy. Something that's kind of funny, too, is that both lyric and luve LOVE ice. When we crush it from the freezer crusher (you know, ice dispenser), we eat it SO much. They love it just as much as I do. Now that lyric talks, she asks for ice when I have some... and if i'm crunching, luve looks at me and makes little grunting sounds while moving his mouth around signaling that HELLO, he wants some too. What can I say? We're addicted. Saia thinks we have a problem.
Anyway - a conversation that came up the other night really cracked me up. Saia & I were talking about before we were married. Well we lived together, and I personally remember cooking often for him. I mean even before we had OUR own place, together. From my one bedroom apartment which I lived in when we met, to my townhome, and then our apartment together, I Just remember cooking for him often. Anyway apparently this guy remembers differently. I asked him "what did I used to cook at our old apartment?" and his answer? TUNA SANDWITCHES AND SOUP. hahah... i about died. (By the way, by SOUP he means the bowl of noodle you find next to Ramen in grocery stores.)
REALLY SAIA?????
Thats all that kid remembers. WOW. I mean, it's true, we did eat that ALOT. Almost every day actually around lunch time because I craved it like crazy while pregnant with Luve. We would soak our sandwitches in that Sriacha sauce - you know, the spicy rooster sauce found at every chinese restaurant with the red bottle and green top? That one. I was seriously addicted! Anyway - the reason I asked him was because we were BROKE before getting married. Well no, not broke, but we definatly did spend our money on things that we dont anymore. (For example partying..) So we ate on a really limited budget! Well now I figure, if we did it then, why not try and do it now and be able to save a little more each month? I make pretty elaborate meals every. single. night. I've probably made him a sandwitch for dinner maybe... 4 times in the past year and a half? Not too shabby if you ask me! I'm always finding fun recipes on pinterest and putting my hands to work. So i thought, hmm, once or twice a week i'll go back to our old ghetto roots of whatever we ate before....
............and apparently thats Tuna sandwitches and Soup.
Anyway!
One fun bit of information for your info hungry little eyes is that Saia's little brother, Vikia, is coming to live with us!! When? TODAY! Haha. He served his mission just 3 hours away from us, in Houston, Texas, and returned to the family in Salt lake December 19th. Well not even a month later, he's headed back to Texas, but this time to live with us. I'm excited! I'm SO happy we'll have a little bit of our Vainuku family out here with us.. and HOPEFULLY that will bring us some visitors! (hint hint). But other than that, i'm excited for more Tongan to be spoken in our home, to benefit the kids (and me!). Lyric knows a bit already and says a few words. I'm so proud of her! With her learning, it helps me learn. No i'd never speak it (other than to my kids haha) but it's always good to understand, so when we go visit family, I atleast KIND of know what they are talking about.
Well that's about all for today. I need to continue cleaning and all of that, preparing for Uncle Vikia to arrive tonight! We are so excited :)
So as I sit here, LOUDLY crunching on this crushed ice, it makes me think back on my pregnancies. Before getting pregnant with lyric, i never chewed ice. Never. I even hated when other people would do it because it was SO loud and annoying, even with their mouth closed. Well, being pregnant with Luve and now this little guy, i CRAVE the hell out of it!!! Not that it has any taste, but just the coldness and crunchy-ness it has.. it's just perfect. If Saia and I are talking about it, my mouth will literally start to water and i'll have to get some from the freezer. I've read that it's due to a lack of Iron.. but I take my prenatal vitamins pretty religiously and still suffer this problem. It's not a problem to me though, it's just amazing. Im sure another pregnant person out there (current or prior) has experienced this same joy. Something that's kind of funny, too, is that both lyric and luve LOVE ice. When we crush it from the freezer crusher (you know, ice dispenser), we eat it SO much. They love it just as much as I do. Now that lyric talks, she asks for ice when I have some... and if i'm crunching, luve looks at me and makes little grunting sounds while moving his mouth around signaling that HELLO, he wants some too. What can I say? We're addicted. Saia thinks we have a problem.
Anyway - a conversation that came up the other night really cracked me up. Saia & I were talking about before we were married. Well we lived together, and I personally remember cooking often for him. I mean even before we had OUR own place, together. From my one bedroom apartment which I lived in when we met, to my townhome, and then our apartment together, I Just remember cooking for him often. Anyway apparently this guy remembers differently. I asked him "what did I used to cook at our old apartment?" and his answer? TUNA SANDWITCHES AND SOUP. hahah... i about died. (By the way, by SOUP he means the bowl of noodle you find next to Ramen in grocery stores.)
REALLY SAIA?????
Thats all that kid remembers. WOW. I mean, it's true, we did eat that ALOT. Almost every day actually around lunch time because I craved it like crazy while pregnant with Luve. We would soak our sandwitches in that Sriacha sauce - you know, the spicy rooster sauce found at every chinese restaurant with the red bottle and green top? That one. I was seriously addicted! Anyway - the reason I asked him was because we were BROKE before getting married. Well no, not broke, but we definatly did spend our money on things that we dont anymore. (For example partying..) So we ate on a really limited budget! Well now I figure, if we did it then, why not try and do it now and be able to save a little more each month? I make pretty elaborate meals every. single. night. I've probably made him a sandwitch for dinner maybe... 4 times in the past year and a half? Not too shabby if you ask me! I'm always finding fun recipes on pinterest and putting my hands to work. So i thought, hmm, once or twice a week i'll go back to our old ghetto roots of whatever we ate before....
............and apparently thats Tuna sandwitches and Soup.
Anyway!
One fun bit of information for your info hungry little eyes is that Saia's little brother, Vikia, is coming to live with us!! When? TODAY! Haha. He served his mission just 3 hours away from us, in Houston, Texas, and returned to the family in Salt lake December 19th. Well not even a month later, he's headed back to Texas, but this time to live with us. I'm excited! I'm SO happy we'll have a little bit of our Vainuku family out here with us.. and HOPEFULLY that will bring us some visitors! (hint hint). But other than that, i'm excited for more Tongan to be spoken in our home, to benefit the kids (and me!). Lyric knows a bit already and says a few words. I'm so proud of her! With her learning, it helps me learn. No i'd never speak it (other than to my kids haha) but it's always good to understand, so when we go visit family, I atleast KIND of know what they are talking about.
Well that's about all for today. I need to continue cleaning and all of that, preparing for Uncle Vikia to arrive tonight! We are so excited :)
1.09.2013
Happy New Year....
...9 days late. But better late than never, right? YES!
This year is already going by so fast. Yes it's only 9 days in, but where have these 9 days gone? Wasn't it just Christmas? CRAZY. Well so far the year has been great! We spent Christmas with family here in Texas, namely my grandma and aunt (plus fam) that I haven't seen in years! It was so nice getting together, and introducing MY little family to them! That's always fun!
So to be honest, for the first time, i didn't really come up with any "new years resolutions"... I mean I already have goals, but saying "my new years resolution this year is ___________"... nope, never happened. I guess i can think of a few now, right? Well first off, I want to try not to loose my mind this year... haha. But on a serious note, I just want to better myself as a mother. Yes, yes... and a wife as well. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I really do feel like i'm a great wife, kind of the best! I spoil the heck out of Saia with love and cake. Yes cake. He craves it constantly when i'm pregnant, so im coooonstantly in the kitchen for this guy! But nothing makes me happier. Happy and GRATEFUL husband = happy wife!
OMG.. DID SHE JUST SAY SHE WAS PREGNANT???
Sure did! Yes we are expecting baby #3! And no we didn't just barely find out ;) We've known for months, and im due at the end of March! We've told family and a few friends, but due to my inactivity on facebook, hardly anyone else knows. We are excited though. We are having another little boy (crossing fingers still that he comes out a girl haha) and are SO excited to meet him! I really did want another little girl, but healthy babies are blessings. PERIOD. I cant wait to see him and all his fuzzy hair! Im assuming he's going to have lots like Lyric and Luve did, due to the fact i have constant heartburn! It sucks.
So other than a baby, i've been busy this year just having fun with the kids and wasting WAY too much time on Pinterest. I LOVE PINTEREST. PIN-A-HOLIC i am! Tonight I made this DELICIOUS Chicken Enchilada soup. It is truly so so good.. i feel like it could be served in a restaurant! But other than the taste, I think im having some kind of allergic reaction or whatever to SOMETHING. Im assuming it's the jalepeno's. After i cut them, my fingers kind of started to burn, AND THEY'RE STILL BURNING. It's been like 6 hours by the way. I've washed and washed, and the only relief I get is from putting them in cold water. I feel like there is heat coming off of them. There is no redness or anything like that, but they just burn, almost as if I got literally burned by something hot. Hot as in temp not spicy. I think they did burn me. And after this blog post, im heading over to pinterest to see what kind of crazy concoction i can find to soothe this pain!
Anyway - this post is ALL over the place, but thats just where my brain is these days. So onto the next subject, LUVE turns ONE this saturday!! Jan 12th, my baby will be 1! It's so crazy to me. Where did the year go? I literally remember every detail from when i had him... from the castor oil shake to the yoga ball to my water breaking and putting a wash cloth in my pants to save our car's seats.. haha! Luckily the hospital is like a 4 minute drive away, and thats only because of stop lights and stop signs. So yes, he will be a year! I've always heard that boys are slower at developing than girls, but was SURE my boy wouldn't be! .....wrong. I was so wrong. Lyric at 1 was running, dancing, clapping her hands, etc. This little guy is still a baby! I mean, he stands on his own without support, and does other cute things, but he is NO WHERE near as "ahead of the game" as she was. No way near at all. I give it another 1-2 months before he starts walking. When he holds our fingers to walk, he does a good job and does it mainly on his own without using us too much for support, but he can crawl faster. He likes to be fast! He's SUCH a mommy's boy and I LOVE IT. Lyric has been all about her daddy from the start. Sure she loves me and kisses/hugs me, but she's not a cuddler or anything of that sort at all. But Luve? This little guy is all about ME! Well, until his dad walks in the room or comes home for work. They love their daddy and he adores them even more. I really am blessed. Life is great right where it's at. We are constantly progressing as a family (not just by popping out babies haha) and I just love it. I'm lucky.. a very very lucky girl.
SO I dont have much else to record (that i can think of at this moment), and I should probably go check on lyric since she's been in her bed yelling mommmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy for the past 10 minutes as i've written this post. That child thinks her bed time is midnight, i swear! She used to be SO good at going to bed at 8:30... then one day we had a late nap and she's been off track ever since! I'm working on it. Praise the Lord Luve has been an excellent sleeper since just a few months old. If he wasn't, i'd loose it. That reminds me, I was supposed to come up with a few new year resolutions, then got WAY off track. So here they are, to close the post :) 1.be a better mother 2.become more organized 3.stop giving a damn what other people think.. 4.and stop trying to impress anyone but myself and my family. THE END! ;)
So to be honest, for the first time, i didn't really come up with any "new years resolutions"... I mean I already have goals, but saying "my new years resolution this year is ___________"... nope, never happened. I guess i can think of a few now, right? Well first off, I want to try not to loose my mind this year... haha. But on a serious note, I just want to better myself as a mother. Yes, yes... and a wife as well. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I really do feel like i'm a great wife, kind of the best! I spoil the heck out of Saia with love and cake. Yes cake. He craves it constantly when i'm pregnant, so im coooonstantly in the kitchen for this guy! But nothing makes me happier. Happy and GRATEFUL husband = happy wife!
OMG.. DID SHE JUST SAY SHE WAS PREGNANT???
Sure did! Yes we are expecting baby #3! And no we didn't just barely find out ;) We've known for months, and im due at the end of March! We've told family and a few friends, but due to my inactivity on facebook, hardly anyone else knows. We are excited though. We are having another little boy (crossing fingers still that he comes out a girl haha) and are SO excited to meet him! I really did want another little girl, but healthy babies are blessings. PERIOD. I cant wait to see him and all his fuzzy hair! Im assuming he's going to have lots like Lyric and Luve did, due to the fact i have constant heartburn! It sucks.
So other than a baby, i've been busy this year just having fun with the kids and wasting WAY too much time on Pinterest. I LOVE PINTEREST. PIN-A-HOLIC i am! Tonight I made this DELICIOUS Chicken Enchilada soup. It is truly so so good.. i feel like it could be served in a restaurant! But other than the taste, I think im having some kind of allergic reaction or whatever to SOMETHING. Im assuming it's the jalepeno's. After i cut them, my fingers kind of started to burn, AND THEY'RE STILL BURNING. It's been like 6 hours by the way. I've washed and washed, and the only relief I get is from putting them in cold water. I feel like there is heat coming off of them. There is no redness or anything like that, but they just burn, almost as if I got literally burned by something hot. Hot as in temp not spicy. I think they did burn me. And after this blog post, im heading over to pinterest to see what kind of crazy concoction i can find to soothe this pain!
Anyway - this post is ALL over the place, but thats just where my brain is these days. So onto the next subject, LUVE turns ONE this saturday!! Jan 12th, my baby will be 1! It's so crazy to me. Where did the year go? I literally remember every detail from when i had him... from the castor oil shake to the yoga ball to my water breaking and putting a wash cloth in my pants to save our car's seats.. haha! Luckily the hospital is like a 4 minute drive away, and thats only because of stop lights and stop signs. So yes, he will be a year! I've always heard that boys are slower at developing than girls, but was SURE my boy wouldn't be! .....wrong. I was so wrong. Lyric at 1 was running, dancing, clapping her hands, etc. This little guy is still a baby! I mean, he stands on his own without support, and does other cute things, but he is NO WHERE near as "ahead of the game" as she was. No way near at all. I give it another 1-2 months before he starts walking. When he holds our fingers to walk, he does a good job and does it mainly on his own without using us too much for support, but he can crawl faster. He likes to be fast! He's SUCH a mommy's boy and I LOVE IT. Lyric has been all about her daddy from the start. Sure she loves me and kisses/hugs me, but she's not a cuddler or anything of that sort at all. But Luve? This little guy is all about ME! Well, until his dad walks in the room or comes home for work. They love their daddy and he adores them even more. I really am blessed. Life is great right where it's at. We are constantly progressing as a family (not just by popping out babies haha) and I just love it. I'm lucky.. a very very lucky girl.
SO I dont have much else to record (that i can think of at this moment), and I should probably go check on lyric since she's been in her bed yelling mommmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy for the past 10 minutes as i've written this post. That child thinks her bed time is midnight, i swear! She used to be SO good at going to bed at 8:30... then one day we had a late nap and she's been off track ever since! I'm working on it. Praise the Lord Luve has been an excellent sleeper since just a few months old. If he wasn't, i'd loose it. That reminds me, I was supposed to come up with a few new year resolutions, then got WAY off track. So here they are, to close the post :) 1.be a better mother 2.become more organized 3.stop giving a damn what other people think.. 4.and stop trying to impress anyone but myself and my family. THE END! ;)
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